going to stephanie's for a couple of days.
my only worry is how lonely i will feel.
kyle and i became engaged there. in her basement.
don't worry, he proposed two times after that.
they were more romantic.
not the point, though.
i can feel all of the emotions that i've suppressed...
the feelings i have ignored...
they are fighting against me
trying to release themselves.
i hate this.
i hate this life i'm leading.
it's empty.
i don't feel like i'm living.
i speak. i laugh. i think. i move.
i breathe.
but i feel like it's just actions.
there's nothing behind it.
i feel like every thing has been taken away from me.
and you?
you're just fine.
how was it so easy to walk in and out
of my life like that?
ugh.
i need to calm down.
take a chill pill.
there's nothing i can do.
forget about it.
forget about him.
i keep telling myself to do so.
i just need to do it.
anyways,
i'm going to steph's.
but i have to walk to the church.
yay.
i'm sick.
it's hot out.
and i have to walk like... a mile.
fantastic.
- v
