kyle and i spoke this morning.
i feel a little better but not much.
i need security more than anything right now.
not if's or maybe's.
i need commitment... but i can't have that.
i need commitment... but i can't have that.
the rug has been ripped from under my feet.
i wonder if he knows how vunerable i am.
a crab without a shell.
such easy prey.
it hurts to doubt kyle and his intentions.
i want to fully trust him.
i am just so afraid.
he kept talking about caitlyn today.
every word cut me.
he kissed her.
he kissed her.
he kissed her.
i keep seeing it over and over in my head.
hopefully things will get better. remember: one day at a time.
